Direction for a Year

A Year's Worth of Change
PG - Religion. Lots of it.

Sure, I may have stopped blogging for some time, but I haven't stopped thinking. As a matter of fact, I am thinking way more than usual these days.

I remember in my portfolio I had mentioned that 2008 would be a year of change. After all, why wouldn't it be? I was starting to lose passion for shooting, grow in SC, and I was going to be a senior to the Year 1s and 2s. Change isn't expected, its inevitable.

Boy, was I right.

I got what I expected, dreamed, thought would be impossible, and then some. Change was everywhere this year - I escaped from the dark side and filled my wardrobe with white shirts. Fnatic plummeted in standards, giving away their throne to SK and more surprisingly, mTw. Dunman High is back at Tanjong Rhu. Even the whole of USA had a (in my opinion) pretty healthy dose of change.

Somehow, I get the feeling that change is far from over though. With the start of the financial crisis, President Obama's term, and a turbulent forecast of Year 4 (just mine actually), change is going to be persistent throughout the next year. Change can be fun, and change can be nasty. I, to say the least, am scared to even think of what is going to happen.

Still, there isn't any way to stop the clock from ticking - pulling out its hands are just a lie. Like it or not, the holidays are over, and there's - yes, I'll say it - homework to be done. Projects to complete. Events to plan. A bleak life to endure. A God to worship.

Yet I have much to be thankful for in the past year. I've been blessed with so much. Friends to last a lifetime. Lessons that will be of more use to me than logarithms (No offence, Mr Lim!). A school that I will defend to death.

But the most important thing that I have to be thankful for is a newly discovered home - My church. I have to admit, for a few years church could sometime feel so much like a chore, and God an abstract concept that only fit into my identity on Sundays and before not all, but some of my meals. Good thing that God does have grace beyond all measure.

It all started with a book honestly. My aunt gave me a book for Christmas, and I was... not so delighted. That was before I flipped to page one. Soon, I was hooked. It wasn't exactly like the bible or the brochures meant for non-Christians - It was so much more specific, so much more relevant.

And I started to think about lately how church provided me with the much needed warmth I was lacking in my life. All of a sudden it hit me that I'd been cold as a christian, and searching for fire in wastelands, not seeing a flame flickering right in front of me. It's strange, I know. But then again, God works in mysterious ways, doesn't he?

So now I'm going to work hard. When God gives messages, he makes sure that message gets to you. I've been sent an invitation, an RSVP is what I'm going to give.

2009 will be my year for God.